SCARLET ILLUSIONS


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these scarlet beads
flowing down my cheeks
as i think of you

in this cold dark night
without anything
nothing...


these scarlet thoughts
swimming from my mind

to the empty space of
my tired heart
let me lay down
where i have to be laid...





About Me


capricorn. loves art. watches movies. mechanical engineer. up diliman graduate. female. 22. single. internet surfer. deviantart addict. blogger. dating sales agent.call center naman ngayon. painter wannabe. dating stageplay actress. nag-iinarte na ngayon. madaldal. makwento. makulit. nihonggo ga chotto wakarimasu. plays guitar. plays badminton. plays bowling. loves swimming.



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goodbye tridel..

Friday, May 27, 2005

this is to pay tribute to good happenings, good friends, and good accommodation.. well, it's hard to accept that i have to leave the work i am with for 4months, 4 unproductive months i must say. this is not the way i expect to be leaving. not this soon. i thought they would like to keep me as soon as i get another job related to course and license as they have said before. maybe they said that because i produced for the first month of my stay here.

so this is what happened, i asked my manager if i can leave half-day last wednesday because i have an interview in the afternoon at goodyear. she said i should have not gone to the office. anyway, she permitted me for one consequence, i filed that day as "leave". yesterday, we talked regarding my status here at work, she advised me to file a resignation effective on may31. she said, if i will not do it, she will terminate me. i never expected her to say that to me, i was very disappointed to her that she never had this "concern" that she was always telling me. she talked to the HR Department and decided that i should file the resignation before may31. i told my manager that i want to stay as long as i don't have any job to transfer yet. i can see in her eyes that she doesn't want to keep me that long. i feel like a loser now. we haven't ended our conversation yet. i actually don't know what i should feel now.

Posted at 9:39 AM
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pervert!!!

Saturday, May 21, 2005

there's this guy who thought that being a "virgin" has a meaningless life. he said you need to have sex to experience heaven. i believed that he's using it to escape his realm. it goes to my nerves, hearing him telling me that virgins are scared and that we have nothing to be proud of. huh? he said we're all the same. it makes me think that men are naturally whores. sorry for the term guys, but some of you demoralize your majority. what do they think of women, "toys"? i don't want to talk in general, i just don't want guys pushing girls to be deceived on their thinking. a friend told me, and he's a guy, that men think with their other head.

Posted at 9:44 AM
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ME Oath Taking Happenings

Thursday, May 19, 2005

we took our oaths as mechanical engineers last monday, may 16, 2005 at the manila hotel. there were a few girls and a bunch of men! i was really excited to take the oath but besides that, i'm also excited for one reason. i'll be meeting my "crush". i met him, he said hi. he smiled. i was shy. he came to me again and said i'm a snob because i didn't recognize him. i said i'm shy. he smiled. then left. his friend invited me to join their company after the oath taking. i refused. i stayed with my friends. me and my friends went to a coffee shop near to where they stayed. how i wish i was there with him. then our friend came. her boyfriend was his friend. then my friend said we'll be going to where his boyfriend and his friends were. we went there but they moved to another place. so, i didn't meet him. then we went to a videoke bar near la salle-taft. we went home by 11pm. oh, i forgot to tell, this guy, has a girlfriend. they are on their sixth month. oh well.. it's so sad. i have to stop having conversations with him. *sigh* i haven't upload the pictures yet on my friendster. i'll post it here once i upload it.

Posted at 5:48 PM
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emotive photography contest

Saturday, May 14, 2005

i would like to join this contest, a photography contest where the theme is emotive. i haven't thought of any subject yet. well, the photo should express emotion. it could be of facial expressions or objects that portray human feeling. please give me an idea whta i should submit for my entry. thanks in advance.

Posted at 1:18 PM
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power massage

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

sunday, may 8, 2005, nagpunta ako sa reyes haircutters para i-try ang power massage na offer nila. sabi kasi ng friend ko, nakakarelax daw ang power massage nila lalo na pag sinundan ng hair spa. mura lang ang power massage nila, 50pesos lang. pagdating ko sa rhs (reyes haircutters salon), binati ako ng mga kabadingan. "good morning ma'am!", sabi ng isa. "ano po ang sa inyo?", sabi ko naman, "power massage po". pagkaupo ko, tinanong pa nya ko kung rebonded daw ang buhok ko kasi maganda daw. bolero talaga mga tao sa parlor para lalo ka mag-enjoy sa services nila at bumalik ka sa kanila para magpabola ulit. e di shinashampoo na ung buhok ko, minassage, sinuklay, at kung anu-ano pa. after 30 minutes, biglang may nagsabi ng, "ay shet! walang tubig!". napalingon ako, kala ko nagbibiruan lang ung mga bading. badtrip, wala ngang tubig. di na maipinta ung mukha ko kasi mejo may kalayuan din ang bahay ko. pero di ako nag-iisa, sa isang sulok nakaupo si lola, nagpa-dye ng buhok. sabi ng isang bading, "lola, uuwi kang itim na itim ang buhok mo." di ko alam kung maiiyak si lola sa sinabi nung bading. sabi naman sakin, "ganda, uwi ka na na bumubula ung buhok mo." parang gusto kong manapak ng bading nung time na un. dahil sa may konting tubig na natira, ginamit un para matanggal ung bula sa buhok ko kahit papaano. dama ko pa rin ung lagkit ng buhok ko. wala ako nagawa, sabi ng bading, balik na lang daw ako para ulitin nya ung power massage. pasensya na daw. ngumiti lang ako at sinabing ok lang un. umuwi ako ng bahay. at pinagtawanan ako ng nanay ko. hay nako. mamaya babalik ako ng rhs. wish ko lang marami na silang tubig. =o)

Posted at 4:11 PM
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plan of life

Monday, May 09, 2005

this day, somebody asked me, are things doing well as you planned it? i can't say yes, but i simply smiled. he said he wanted to be a nurse/doctor but because he dreamed of a dying person in his arms bathing in his own blood, he stopped nursing. he told me his story, his soul-searching then finally finishing a course that drove his life to where he is now. i'd really love to be a painter, i would like to take fine arts but my parents didn't allow me. they said, i won't make money by that. taking up mechanical engineering wasn't my choice. it wasn't anyone's choice in my family. they actually didn't like me taking that course 'cause they said it's for guys only. so when they gave me a choice to shift course, i don't know where to shift and i don't like any other course. so i finished mechanical engineering. and i took the licensure examination and passed. this i planned when i decided to finish ME. but now, i miss drawing, i miss being artistic. well, i still go to gallery exhibits and oh, i am so jealous of those persons who have good artworks!

now, i am thinking, did i made the right plan of my life? how about you?

Posted at 5:56 PM
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candy coated poison

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

"i'm sorry..", this is only what blunted out my mouth. there's no such thing as candy coated poison, as my friend said. true. it never is sweet. i never knew this candy would cause a lot of pain, in evry part of my body. and his body. i can't find any dose of cure for both of us. the next thing i knew, both of us were dying...

Posted at 4:06 PM
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