SCARLET ILLUSIONS


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these scarlet beads
flowing down my cheeks
as i think of you

in this cold dark night
without anything
nothing...


these scarlet thoughts
swimming from my mind

to the empty space of
my tired heart
let me lay down
where i have to be laid...





About Me


capricorn. loves art. watches movies. mechanical engineer. up diliman graduate. female. 22. single. internet surfer. deviantart addict. blogger. dating sales agent.call center naman ngayon. painter wannabe. dating stageplay actress. nag-iinarte na ngayon. madaldal. makwento. makulit. nihonggo ga chotto wakarimasu. plays guitar. plays badminton. plays bowling. loves swimming.



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Top 5 Weird Habits (tag from fickle kat)

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Top 5 Weird Habits
(From Fickle Kat)

Just list top-5 of your Weird Habits
Pass to 5 friendsLeave a comment or tag on 5 friends informing that you tagged them.

The following are my weird habbits:1. I can cry and laugh at the same time. weird isn't it? 2. dinadala ko ang cellphone ko sa banyo kahit naliligo ako. syempre nilalagay ko sa place na hindi sya mababasa. 3. gusto ko na may katabing tuwalya na basa sa pagtulog tapos naka kumot pa ako. hehehehehehehe!!! 4. ayoko ng cheese!!! i prefer spaghetti na walang cheese at kinikilabutan ako pag sobrang dami ng cheese na kakainin ko. 5. 2 buwan na akong nasa graveyard shift!!!! wala na akong social life!!! gusto ko na matulog ng gabi!!!

i want to tag RAC, Jegai, Alfred, Josh, and JM..

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constantine maroullis

Friday, November 18, 2005


super grabe!!! i screamed at the top of my lungs!!

i was on greenbelt park yesterday together with my officemate, digna, to watch constantine's mini-concert. day off ko kahapon, niyaya ako ng officemate ko, sakto na pupunta talaga kami ng makati ng mommy ko dahil maggrocery kami. nagmeet kami ni digna and we went off to the park. napakadaming tao! di na kami makahanap ng pwesto. paikot-ikot kami hanggang sa mahanap namin ang pwesto na makikita namin si constantine, sa tapat ng white screen kung saan nakaprojector si constantine. o di ba? sobrang lapit na tipong kita ko ang butas ng ilong nya. hahahhahahah!!!

tinext ko ang isang officemate pa na gusto manood, si bec. kaso sabi nya, sa atc na lang daw sya manonood. sabi ko nasa harapan kami nakapwesto. hahhahahah!! sabi nya kunan ko daw si constantine. e di kagandahan ang camera ng cellphone ko, buti na lang nasa tapat kami ng screen. ayun! dun ko kinuhanan ng picture si constantine. heheheeh!!! bukas pagpasok ko, ipapakita ko sa kaiya ang mga pictures, tignan ko lang kung hindi sya maniwala na sa unahan kami nakapwesto.

isang oras din ung mini-concert nya. si jay durias ng south border ang nagpi-piano sa kaniya, siya rin daw ang music director. lahat ng bandmates ay pilipino din, pati ang mga second voice. kumanta sya ng every little she does is magic, this is how you remind me, bohemian rhapsody at marami pang rock na kanta.

kahit paos na kami sa kakakanta at kakasigaw, worth it naman ang pagpunta dun, lalo na at napakagwapo nya. grabe!!! di pa ko kumakain nung pumunta kami dun, nawala ang gutom ko. ulam na ulam si papa constantine, kulang na lang ng kanin at tubig. hahahahhaahha!!

Posted at 7:31 PM
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nakakamiss..

Wednesday, November 09, 2005


haaay.. ang hirap ng walang social life.. kapag puro trabaho na lang, tapos ung mga kasama mo pa sa trabaho di mo din mayaya lumabas o gumimik dahil pare-parehong pagod at busy, magkakaiba pa ng schedule.

lalo ko pang namiss ang mga dati kong katrabaho sa tridel kapag nababasa ko ang mga blogs nila. actually, si airwind ang may pakana ng mga blog na ito. nakakalungkot na nakakatawang basahin ang mga blogs nila na kasamang nilang gumigimik ang mga bago nilang katrabaho. naalala ko dati nung magkakasama pa kaming nagtatrabaho sa tridel, sabay-sabay kaming nagbablog, hahhahahahah!!!!

nung nagbabalak na ko dating umalis sa tridel, naisip kong mamimiss ko talaga sila. actually, sila din ang dahilan kung bakit ako tumagal dun ng apat na buwan. sabi din ni airwind, ang mahirap sa umaalis, nawawalay ka sa mga naging ka-close mo na. pero pag naisip mo kung ano ung magandang bagay, un ung may makikilala kang bago pero di mo parin nakkalimutan ang mga dati mong kaibigan.

ako man, may mga bago na ring kaibigan. may balak nga akong lumipat ng account. pero pag naiisip ko un, naalala ko ung mga kaibigan kong naging ka-close ko sa account ko ngayon. bagong adjustment na naman, bagong pakikisalamuha, bagong pagkakakilala.

pati mga classmates ko nung college, namimiss ko na. iniisip ko kung saan na sila nagtatrabaho. parang kelan lang, magkakasama kaming nag-aaral pag malapit na mag-exam o di naman kaya, gumagawa ng project pag malapit na deadline.

kahit ung mga taong nakagalit ko dati o ung mga taong sinaktan ako in the past, nakakamiss din. syempre, meron parin namang mga magagandang bagay silang ginawa. at syempre, di rin naman ako magiging ganito kundi din dahil sa kanila. sabi nga nila, you won't be a tough person if you were not put into trials.

people just come and go, but they will leave a mark in your heart, be it good or bad..

Posted at 5:52 PM
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depressed..

Sunday, November 06, 2005

there were times that you feel so depressed, stupid, lonely and mad about yourself. i've experienced depression a couple of times. i also once became suicidal. i had a friend who made me a poem, and i want it to share it with you..

EAT ME

i hate to see you regress,
i wasn't there when you ingest
the pilled that called your name,
now you'll never be the same.
and it's sad to see you face
staring out at outer space:
wishing that you would smile again
or just tell me you're in pain.
-we share the same cup o' tea
but we sail different seas,
because i have lost my head;
you don't need to end up dead.
alice needs a helping hand,
i'm no cat in wonderland-
i just hope that you'd soon awake
from this nightmare or you'll break.
it's sad to blame it on fate-
i'm mad 'cause it's seems too late
to save ourselves from dreams,
ask salvation, -be redeemed.

but maybe we'll run into rabbit someday
and maybe you will not lose your head today.
just remember you were given a choice,
"Eat ME" was written; read aloud by your voice.
when i was in that state, i wrote poems or drew to vent out what i feel. my friends thought i was going to break down. good thing, i'm still alive. i want to share this poem i made,
SWEET BITTERNESS
Treasure a moment of my existence
For you might not have again my presence.
Keep alesson from my experience
For it might answer questions of your innocence.
I might not know everything
But i guess i have more than nothing.
If you think I'm not inspiring,
Then better tie me a rope and let me hanging...
sometimes, we don't know why we feel so bad, and thinks it's almost the end of our life. little did we know, there's something in store for us if only we keep our faith and will to move on. some people don't understand why there are people like me who experience depression. kala nila umaarte lang kami or nagpapapansin. ang hindi nila alam, we are trying to get out of the darkness that is wrapping around us. basta, di ko maexplain kung ano feeling. pero sana, kung may kilala kayong depressed, palawakin nyo pa ang pag-intindi.

Posted at 10:58 PM
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funny pics to laugh at

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

hope i can make you laugh. just want to share this pictures.. (some pictures came from my email, some i got from people.ambrosiasw.com/~andrew/funny/)













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